takahiroki asked: Matthew,
I sure hope you're doing well! or you know.. 'better' [i've never liked that word for some reason] well to get to the point this isn't really a question... i haven't seen you since i believeee May '08? whenever you were last in Albany, NY [Valentines, the lovely little whole in the wall]. I took a bit of a trip for VT to see you. Anyways i just want to say something im sure you’ve heard a million times, because well of course you deserve it…
but thank you. You are the single most deserving person for those two words, when it comes to people who have helped in my life. I’ve been having an incredibly hard time lately, after being homeless for a short while, now living with a group of boys, my father hating me, being chronically ill, a full time college student, depressed, anxiety ridden and just dealing with a whole bunch of complicated things that I simply rather didn’t exist, but of course, it’s life, so they do. I’m a bit of a mess but… you’re the biggest source of positivity for me, when often times I have nowhere to look to. So, yes, this is typical of course, but thank you. Thank you so much, to you and the rest of the guys. You’re music is always there when I need it and I couldn’t imagine it any other way, or I probably wouldn’t exist. You make me smile like no one else and it’s been this way for such a long time. You inspired me to finishing writing a book, be more confident and just keep going. I’m not giving up, though I sometimes consider it. I don’t think I ever will, and I hope you won’t either. We’ve all got shit right? Stay happy, it means a lot to us River People. And I hope I see you back in the lovely [sort of] state of Vermont sometime soon, but of course, no rush!
Actually I’ll finish this off with a question. You like philosophy right? I’ve taken quite a few classes in the past year and I’m curious of your recommendations on essays/books/philosophers? I’ve grown quite interested despite the 8-page papers I’m constantly assigned, haha.
Gosh, I feel all emotional and crap now. Sorry!
All the best in the universe,
Chelsea

thinking and destiny by howard percival… kant, and darwin to learn the other stuff, and eckart tolle to put the whip cream on top.

your words = elation to me thank you